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[Sep. 21st, 2009|11:23 am] |
its day by day with you.
there isnt a promise of where we'll end up, or what we even are.
i think so far ahead. but i wish i just had the assurance of waking up every day and knowing you'll be there.
but i dont have that.
we're getting there.
but its very much a day by day improvement. i think you want me there, but its hard for you.
and believe me its very hard for me too.
theres a lot to overcome as individuals ... as well as a team.
i just hope boundaries get crossed, walls get broken down, hearts open up and a bond is formed.
because you- are absolutely amazing. you just have to see that too.
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[Sep. 19th, 2009|11:54 am] |
from cierra. thx! :)
Have you ever had sex while drunk?
err. yes. but not with a random person. the boyfriend.
Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
absolutely
When is the last time you were at a beach?
fucking forever ago. probably when i was in maine last year.
Your ex calls wanting to hangout; what do you say?
only if we can bake cookies and watch army of darkness
Think back to September, were you in a relationship?
i was. and it was good.
If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
i would put my life on shuffle and let it choose for itself. personally, i wouldnt want to delete anything, however the word "had" was mentioned. so probably this year i would delete.
Are you worried about anything right now?
yes. many things.
Did you have a dream last night?
i dont remember. last night ended up being terrible. thanks villa park, for being so god damned small that im bound to run into people.
Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right?
possibly.im begging to think that none of the kisses in the past 6 months have meant much.
Have you ever met a gay person?
yes and i work with many of them. :)
Do you have a picture of you kissing someone?
sure do
Have you kissed the last person you texted?
ryans mom? no. haha
Do you think you'll be married in five years?
definitely not.
Do you think someone has feelings for you?
yes. in some fucked up way.
Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
in part. yes.
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
usually. especially when i dont hear from him and im worried sick.
Could you see yourself with someone forever?
sure.
Do you know anyone who's having a baby?
umm, i think they all just popped em out recently.
Have you ever been called heartless?
damn. yeah, it sucks.
Who was the last person to give you a hug?
amy
Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
yeah, it might not end up well though
What was the first thing you thought this morning?
I cant believe i might walk away from him over this. i wish he would wise up.
What is something you disliked about your day?
yesterday? i disliked seeing him obliterated. today? i dislike not knowing the fate of our "relationship"
Do you think you'll have the same best friend a year from now?
forever.
Has anyone ever seen you kiss the last person you kissed?
yes. especially on monday.
Where were you at 2am?
dropping his sloppy ass off at home
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J? How many?
haha! yes. "J" has been a popular letter for me. 18.
Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?
uh huh, as odd as that sounds.
Have you accidentally sent a text to the wrong person?
lol,havent we all?
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
not as much as i am disappointed in him
Have you ever received a text message that made you cry?
yep.
Does the last person you kissed have anything of yours?
not right now.
Are you a mean person?
generally i am a nice person but i can surely be a bitch.
Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?
i follow my heart. which .... usually causes me to get hurt. but whatever
Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
no. he couldnt even complete a full sentence. let alone stand or keep his eyes open. (does this whole thing sound like a bash on this kid?)
Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
ryan. and myself. my brother. my uncle.
How bad are heartbreaks?
really bad
Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
lots of people. heather lindsay most definitely
Last time you were really happy?
monday
Next time you will kiss someone?
today possibly
Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
ryan
Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
mhmm. all the time.
The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3am; would you go?
ive done it. i always will.
Have you fallen asleep in someones arms?
yes
Who did you last hang out with?
amytall
Do you have plans for tomorrow?
gym, possibly(depending on how things go today) meeting ryans grandmother, wishing his mother a happy birthday, and watching the bears game at 3p,
Does anyone hate you?
probably
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
sean daley
How late did you stay up last night?
til 2:30-3am ish
When was the last time you really laughed?
last night
Do you drink regular or diet sodas?
regular. but i barely drink pop
Are there any words on your shirt? What does it say?
faded grey
blind to blue skies a bright day to live a grey day to day
Are you an older sibling?
yes. but i am the middle.
Do you say 'legit'?
often probably
When did you last eat Chinese food?
i ate thai yesterday. probably finish it today too
Are you jealous of someone right now?
eh, not really.
Do you tan or burn when in the sun?
burn
What was the weather like on your birthday?
chilly. but it was a good birthday.
Your favorite thing to drink on a hot summer day?
water.
Do you plan on moving out in a few years?
yes. then again ive been saying that for years.
How has this week been?
started off really great. consistently got worse.
Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
no.
If you could have anything right now what would it be?
a sober boyfriend.
How ticklish are you?
insanely ticklish
Have you lost friends in the past three years?
i just lost one 2 weeks ago
If you had the chance to move out of your current house right now, would you?
yes
What would you do if a stranger came up to you and said you are the most attractive person they'd ever seen?
happened two days ago. i just say thanks.
How many people have you kissed this summer?
3
What is on your wrists right now?
love life, a heart and 2 hair ties
Has anyone said I love you today?
yes me poppa
Where do you think your number 1 is right now?
in new zealand, sorry, i cant deny that.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yesterday: lady says " your eyes are incredible!" he daughter then turned to her and said "uh! mom! you never say that to me!"
day before: dude that works in the store " hey beautiful, jesus. your eyes look amazing today! whatever you did, keep doing it"
Are you taller than 5'5"?
no
Have you ever liked anyone that's older then you?
yes. almost every person ive dated.
Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
i like it
Honestly, if you could go back one month and change something would you?
yes
What are you doing today?
working til 10
Do you have a best friend?
a couple
Last person you went swimming with?
sister and ma in vegas
Would you eat a live tarantula for $1,000?
no i would not
What's your favorite season of the year?
fall
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
yes i think so.
Did you sleep alone last night?
yes
When was the last time you cried?
last night. a lot.
Has someone gotten mad at you in the last 24 hours?
hell fucking yes.
Do you talk a lot?
when I feel like it
What was your last bruise from?
uhhh work probably?
Is there a meaning behind your profile song?
no
Has anyone ever given you roses?
yes
What color are your eyes?
blue
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
ryan. well... it was mostly me talking and him trying to keep from falling over. awesome, right?
Can guys and girls be friends without trying to make it more?
fa sho! holla at all my boys!;) haha |
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[Sep. 17th, 2009|08:35 am] |
It's been a long and difficult month. But A couple positive things have hAppened...and I had high hopes that it would last a Bit longer than this. But, after only two full dAys of him getting out. It seems we've already had a Stint with his old ways. I spent my night worried as hell, then freaking out, then ending my night with pure disappoinrment and hopelessness. It's amazing how much you'll put yourself through when you really care about someone. I just hope that if it reAlly doesn't change that I have the strength to walk away. I can't stick around to watch someone self destruct after all the blessings and second chances he's had. His brother tAlked to me last night. Told me he's got me figured out. That I want to help Ryan.and he's like a million piece puzzle that I'm trying to put together aNd keep from fAlling apart. But every time I think I've mAde progress he's gotta do something to scramble the board. Again and again.
And he's right.
Ryan and I will figure it out and things will be fine for a while, but who knows what will happen next.
I guess I just have high hopes for people. And my heart doesn't give false impressions. Everything haPpens for a reason, and I can't wait to get a glimpse of what it is.
I lost friend recently. I have a few things to say about that, so whenever I can write again, it will be about him. |
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[Aug. 25th, 2009|12:35 pm] |
this is why i miss my sister. and this is why i get so upset that she doesnt even spend time with me anymore. and this is also is a direct connection as to why i hate her faggot ass boyfriend because hes had a negative effect on the person she is now.
2004-02-23 - im rick james bitch !!!
me and julie didn't go to school today...we stayed home....and played in the rain...
we told mom and dad that "we are not going to school" and we didn't...they didn't even give us a hard time about it...dad came in my room after my sister and he was like julie said that you guys were not going to school today...what do you think of all this...i kinda looked at him sleeply and said "we are not going to school today" he had a little grin on his face and gave a little sheepish laugh and said ok...ill see you when i get home from work and then he gave me a kiss goodbye and left...my mom came in next...not fully into my room tho she kinda just oppened the door alittle and looked in smiled and shook her head and then quietly closed the door and left...she didn't know that i was awake yet...at about 10:00 i finally rolled out of bed and went down stairs...got something to eat...it wasnt raining at that time so i just sat on my couch and watched tv with julie...mom left and went shopping so me and julie were home alone for along time..it was fun tho...we sat out in front of our house and watched the rain then we played in it and then just talked...it was great way to spend a rainy day...there was no way i was going to sit in school while it was so nice out...later on me and julie had to take the dogs for a walk and we were just screaming out random stuff while walking...i was laughing so hard my sides hurt and my eyes were tearing...haha im rick james bitch...hott chikcs with tits...lance you dont have to do that any more...I LOVE MEN!!! lance you dont have to do that either!!!
i think me and yulie both just needed a day to play in the rain and have some do nothing all day it was great... xoxo <3 |
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| im the worst at this updating thing. so shoot me. |
[Jul. 18th, 2009|11:57 am] |
i wish i knew what i wanted to do with myself.
i made it past one stage in my life, and prior to that actually happening, i thought i had a pretty good idea of what i want to do. now that i've walked over that stepping stone, ive got to decide which one i want to step on next.
school sometimes seems so silly to me, but at the same time, i can never deny the fact that i enjoy a great professor, and a really good class. i like to learn, but at the same time. paying for education fucking sucks. students are the ones that should get paid for school. besides, we're the future right? haha, ohhh if only.
meanwhile, i want a new job. and i pretty much look at least once a day if anything seems appealing. however, there is SHIT out there right now. so -- looks like im gonna be stuck where i'm at for a minute. .. damn...
i got a wake up call this morning, from an old "friend" who was just here a couple weeks ago. he surprised me and said "im in chicago! should i stop by?" im like what the fuck? how does that happen? lol. anyway, i hope i get to spend an afternoon with him while hes here til tuesday. that would be stupendous!!!!! damnsmella moves here a couple days after i get home from vegas.
speaking of vegas! i'll be in town starting the 29th!
i've got some plans made already, however. as usual, i'd like to see as many people as possible. lindsay is going to try to get a party goin for me a"welcome home julie going away party" lol, it'll be lots of fun. everyone is invited. so come play!
tom if you see this. im totally wishing on my lucky stars (do i even have any?) to get tattooed. before i lose my nerve. haha.
and finally, dudes are fucking bullshit. i think i've realized (once again in my life) that i'm meant to be single. and all dudes are liars, dont know what they want, and cant seem to get their shit together. and this applies to a few different people that are "in my life". funny really. how i can usually predict shit really well after shit hits the fan. so as of right now, my "love life" its pretty much non-existent. and ya know? im totally alright with that!
ive been partying a little too much lately. at least i acknowledge it. but fuck it! rage on.
also, PETEY if you read this .. your birthday is coming up, right? wanna go to lunch!? i'll take you out! :-D do you still have my number? hit me up if you wanna take me up on the offer. |
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| so, the only good things to report as of late: |
[Jul. 2nd, 2009|09:03 am] |
1) i finally have my associates degree in art and graduated with honors.
2) i got to see nate and spend time with him (and go to the Dew Tour)
3) i got to see and spend time with larry brown (and folsom)
however, for each ONE of these things, there are 10 more unfortunate ones to report. |
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| so. this is where im at right now. |
[Jun. 2nd, 2009|06:14 pm] |
2+ years of running in circles.
i refuse to believe you.
you just keep pushing (away) and i keep pulling you back.
then when i try to push you away, you pull me right back.
you're just it for me.
i dont know how else to explain it.
last night was fucking fabulous, by the way. |
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| i suck at this thing. i never write. |
[May. 22nd, 2009|11:23 am] |
grades.
philosophy (business ethics)
humanities (cultural diversity of the arts)
advertising for design (illustration)
management (supervision)
i have 93 credits total.
now what.
i know i wish i had the slightest fucking clue of where i want to go to school next.
ugh. |
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| Never |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|08:55 am] |
I honestly will never learn my lesson. Not to mention I'll never understand how this shit works. And I've done a lot of things to make me look like a fool in my time, but not like this. It's sad and upsetting.
Not to mention there's snow on the ground again. I don't usually complain about it-- but really. It's April.
Also I fucking can't stand the ting tings. |
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| an email from dad. |
[Mar. 29th, 2009|10:57 am] |
My dad and i took a road trip to Cleveland to see the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame.
Drove out monday, did a lot of shit tuesday, and drove home wednesday.
it was 3 days packed full of adventures and fun.
heres what he sent me:
March 26, 2009
Hi Julie,
I'm halfway through my 1st day back at work ...and I can't stop thinking about how great a time I had with you on our vacation together.
It was sooooooo cooooool to share those 3 days together. You can bet that I'll always remember and cherish the good times we shared on this trip, for as long as I live.
It's unfortuate for us that we can't have more good times like this...but, there's a lot of stuff that stands in our way. Let's make certain, that at times, we clear away all of the other bullshit and put it aside, so we can enjoy each other's every once in a while, okay?
You were a pleasure to be with...and you were so polite to others and me!
You're so consciencious too...always being pleasant and cleaning up after yourself and others...just to help out.
You had a great attitude! You were happy and you were having FUN! It was beatiful to see all of the enjoyment you were getting out of this trip.
That was a great payoff for me...because when you are happy then I am BEAMING!
Some things I remember well...
Our last minute stops before we left...bananas, yukey coffee, smokes, dip, gas...and the bank for money!
The McDonalds on the Skyway bridge and the $2.50 tolls
The scary bridge
You falling asleep on your special pillow
Our first gas stop...when you cleaned our windows
Me changing the CD's that have been in the player for 2 years!
Our Led Zeppelin jam
Our Red Hot Chili Peps jam
Then Bob Marley, mahn!
The Ohio Turnpike
Dale's...your TShirt and great Moz Cheese Sticks, with Killian's Red, in WauMee!
The itsy bitsy Cleveland skyline
Taking the wrong turns as we got into Cleveland
Following Big Head Todd
Checking in at the Hotel and getting a hot and freshly baked chocolate chip cookie
The cool condiment bar at Starbucks
A great - 1st night in town WORKOUT!
Swimming and Whirlpool treat
Itchy skin and burning eyes
A delicious dinner salad, hot fresh coffee and beautiful Plumerias to boot
Sleeping like a log on that 1st night
Waking up all excited about the new day ahead
Calling Ticketmaster for Eagles tickets
Walking down E. 9th St. and then E. 4th Street
Taking pictures on the street
Buying tickets to the Eagles concert...and getting good seats
The walk back to the Hall
The Rock and Roll Hall of Fame and Museum
Taking that great picture together
...Robert
The exhibits and movies
Lunch with the crabby guy...and ja-lop-a-nos
...Robert
Shopping for souveniers...thinking of Grammy, Mom, Gina and Frank missing the great time
...Robert
Taking a nap before the concert
Figuring out where to eat dinner, before the concert...and you being carded 2x
Getting the run around from the old guy about where our seats were located
$15 beers...
$15 beers...
$15 beers...
Taking cool pictures and laughing at fat Joe Walsh
Recording the Hotel California song
"Poison Summer" song...oops "Boys of Summer" song
The Encore!
Our stop at Flanigans for more beer and fried Moz Cheese "pillows"
Darts...sticking in the woodwork...and the guys we met from MauMee, "I live three blocks from there...(Dale's)!"
Passing out in the hotel room on the second night
Moving slow on Wednesday...not really wanting it to come to an end
Fighting a headache
Walking around in the rain, looking for a place to eat...that wasn't smelly or across the street from Crazy Horse
Walking around the Galleria looking at cool art
Finding an IHOP!
Cool houses on "Lake Shore Drive"
Finding the highway home
You're headache
The Sun!
Reload the CD Player a 2nd time in 2 years
Ice cream break...and changing places again...you're turn to drive
80? 94? 90? which way home?
No traffic
...and finally, pulling into the garage...or NOT
Getting Home...and no one there!
Posting pictures on Facebook
WOW...I'm sure I missed a few things along the way...but I'm so glad I didn't miss this special time with you! My Special Daughter!
Love you!
Dad
xoxoxo
P.S. I had a blast! I trust you did too!
so, i read this and i was happy. i dont usually "act" like i have fun being with my dad when we're at home.... infact, thats how it usually is when i'm at home. for some reason im so fucking irritated at home. and its not really because of my family (well, sometimes) but its basically because of school, or work, or other things. but anyway, it was fucking awesome seeing the Hall of Fame and museum ... and spontaneously seeing the Eagles! |
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| so my life goes like this |
[Mar. 17th, 2009|04:40 pm] |
the past few months have been ... just... wow.
here's the run down.
December - Jan: Jason in England for 6 weeks, and Jeremy came home from New Zealand.
February: Jason was home for 10 days, and then left to Arizona for 6+ months. Jeremy spills the beans about his feelings and reasoning.
March: Break up, emotional break down, and car accident.
So heres how it went.
Things were great between jason and i for the most part, and it was really difficult to say goodbye to him when he left for england. even though 6 weeks isn't that long -- it really kind of is when you spend every day with someone and have never been away from them, even for a matter of days. leaving him at the airport wasn't easy, but the time passed. he was home only long enough for me to feel normal again, and then, that was it... he got in a car on the morning of february 10th and drove straight to arizona.
I've seen jeremy twice since he's been home. both times were fun. both times were simple. and maybe a bit awkward, but at the time i was thinking it was just me. until about two weeks ago. out of nowhere, he hit me with too much information. basically, he told me he left chicago so that he could "leave me be" and so that he could "get a clean start". he said, when he broke up with me, all of his reasons were bullshit. and that they were just excuses. and that i was right. he said he wasnt ready for "us" and he wasnt ready to grow up. he said he knew "our relationship was perfect and he freaked out" and didnt know what else to do. he then told me that he couldnt date anyone until june after he left because he couldnt stop thinking about me. and his plan had failed him. he said even after the first girl he dated, he still didnt feel right. also, he noted that, "im like an addiction" he cant stop. he feels all of these things, but he just cant "see us together".
many other things were said that night, but he just told me that he wants me to be happy.
as it stood that night. Jeremy and i were still friends and still had plans to hang out a few times before he leaves the country again.
exactly 3 nights after that.... he tells me we can no longer hang out. talk. be friends, anything. nothing at all. he said he has to" finally be done. finished with the what if's and the maybes"
so - imagine what this did to me. but honestly, what did i expect?
the point is, that i was still affected by the things he was saying. i was still hurt, crushed and heartbroken.
and i have a boyfriend. i felt completely untrue to jason. its hard to explain really, but the best i can do is say that -- i still had feelings for jeremy. and ive been with someone else for a year. and im in love with him. however, if i still have feelings for someone else, i can not possibly give all of myself to jason. and that is not fair.
so, two days following that-- i broke up with jason.
for a few reasons.
i need to deal with my emotions. realize that jeremy is gone, and he and i are done with. i have never been pushed so far away by someone in my life, and i have never been so denied . i deserve the person that jeremy is-- but i would deserve ALL of him, and i can not have all of jeremy. and i will not wait for him either. so therefore, its through. completely. and i have to get a hold of that.
next, jason is gone for another 6 months at least. i'm trying to figure out what i want to get my degree in, what school i want to go to, how im going to pay for it. where i'm going to live, if i need to get another job, etc.
more or less, i need to focus on my life and things i need to accomplish. I do love jason. and i do want to be with him, but obviously, now is not the right timing.
I didnt break up with him to get over him. and i know the kind of girl that i am. and im not "needy" but i need the intimacy of a relationship. the compatibility, the friendship, the cuddles, the visual, mental stimulation, and a phonecall every night will not suffice for me. maybe thats shallow? but at least im honest.
So, currently.
jason and i have spoken a few times since we broke up, and jeremy-- not once. not a text, a phonecall,or indirect pass at anything. As far as i'm concerned, i can only give someone so many chances, and i'm done.
car accident on saturday -- ugh. heading eastbound on 290 merging onto 90/94. terrible, as usual. and to make a long story short, 4 cars had to slam on their brakes, which forced me to, which forced the guy behind me to have to slam on his too, only he didnt stop in time.
so yay!
thats my long update.
oh yeah! and. ....
i love this fricken girls hair and i want it.
i need some opinions.
could i pull it off? or would it not be a good style for me?
honesty, please! before i chop all my hair off again. hahah |
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| I am terrible at relationships |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|11:50 pm] |
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And if dudes aren't ruining their chances with me, I'm breaking up with ones who don't deserve it. |
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| It's never any easier |
[Feb. 10th, 2009|06:39 pm] |
Today is the day that I've been really unexcited about for months now. When I found out a few months ago that he would be leaving me-- I changed my mind about things a million times since then.
When you get into a relationship with someone, you never know if things are going to work out, if he is "the one" or what the future will eventually hold for you. At least I never knew any of these things for sure until now. I have totally figured out what it is about him that I absolutely love and adore. He deserves the chance to at least feel love once in his life from woman. He deserves what I can give him, and sure he's made mistakes, as have I, but he has done more than enough to assure me that I am everything he wants. Makes me feel beautiful, is my best friend, and believes in me. More than that-- he puts up with me. And anyone who knows me well enough knows that I can be a lot to handle at times. But overall-- I want to give him all of the chances that other guys never gave me. Because, well, Jason has obviously taken some chances on being with me too. And let's face it, he makes me smile so hard. He is the sweetest person I have ever met in my life- and although he is not "julies type", maybe julie's type wasn't the best the first ten times around.
I've fallen in love with someone who might very well be my oppsite, and it's working. The next 6 months are going to be so difficult, but I hope to be able to pull my own weight and not fuck this up.
In a few months time, I'll be making my way to arizona.
Let's hope I can make it that far. |
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| i had a dream last night.... |
[Jan. 25th, 2009|09:41 pm] |
and for the first time in 4 years i have considered moving back to vegas (temporarily) to finish school (finally)
all because of a dream.
and its very strange - i have been thinking about it all day. but i feel like... i dont know.
its pretty crazy actually. but for some reason, i feel really good about it.
who would have thought. |
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| This lifetime. |
[Jan. 19th, 2009|10:07 am] |
So, today marks a day of reflection in this country's history. It's not just a holiday, or a day off from school.... although for many years of my life it wasn't much more than that. For me, every year I think about what it mens more and more. How much personal progress I think i have made. I feel more understanding and compassionate.
One of my teachers asked the entire class last week to read the MLKJr. "I have a dream" speech, and then reflect on it. I've not read this speech, in its entirety, until last week. (If you havent either, just do it)
I know that there is a little bit more hype about the importance of his movement this year than any other, because tomorrow's proceedings show truth in progress. But, really when i think about it... i think that yes. we have made a lot of progress, but, what about the people that still cant be ok with us having a (half) black president? Obviously, this year isnt much different than any other, because-- no matter what president we have, there will always be people that will dislike him/her.
Everyday, i encounter something regarding race that truly just pisses me off. And i'm still guilty of it as well. It is SO EASY just to target people based on their accent, color of their skin... whatever. I work in a place where HUNDREDS of different people walk through the doors. Some are very cordial and nice, while others are just absolutely ignorant and rude. When the ignorant ones stand out-- it is so easy to say something that is not really appropriate. Isnt that the problem? the fact of the matter is, -- like, listen. There are always going to be rich people, poor people, the assholes, bitches, old hags, little bastard children, and annoying picky ass people who- quite frankly, will always get under my skin. because, i'm not that strong. My personality is defensive, and short tempered. (this is why i always say when i grow up i have to be my own boss ;) ) anyway, there will ALWAYS be these types of people, and there will ALWAYS be different "colored" people.
but the bottom line? we're all people. and we're all assholes. and jerks. and complainers, and picky with our "grande-non-fat-no-foam-extra-hot-latte-with-a-little-whipped-cream-but-not-too-much....OH MY GOSH! Thats-too-much-foam-and-not-enough-whipped-cream-.....CAN YOU REMAKE THIS FOR ME?"
just reading that makes me want to punch someone in the face!
im just wondering when we can all just relax. and we can all just live happily. when being gay is no big deal. and being black doesnt mean youre a "nigger". and being of middle eastern descent doesnt make you a "camel jockey". when being asian doesnt automatically make you a genius. when being a mexican doesnt mean that you're a wet back.
i dont know. it really gets to me. there will always be jokes, and thats fine. because, we need humor in order to somehow make it work. but we dont need to be offensive/take offense. we dont need to hate people just because. i just want to know when.
Emancipation Proclamation - Sept. 22, 1862
I Have a Dream Speech - Aug. 28, 1963
First Black President (does it really matter that he's only half black?) - Jan. 20, 2009
Sure. Things take time. Especially for a world and a country with so many different types of people. I guess, we should start with the things that drive with the most discrimination, and prejudice. to me, that stems from religion. (so shoot me.)
but thats a whole other topic.
does anyone else think that this is all such a mess? i think most of the people that are hoping that Obama comes into office and turns everything around, are never fully going to be satisfied. But, i am personally hoping, and have trust in him. that he will make changes that this country has never seen. positive ones. i really really hope so.
It just sucks that his first couple years in office are going to be focused on cleaning up the mess that Bush created. Obama seems to have such an innate sense of what needs to happen. i hope everyone feels that.
Regardless of what ANYONE says. whether you like Obama or not- THIS IS ANOTHER PIVOTAL MOMENT in history. and we're all living and growing up in this time. and we will forever be tied to it. ... and im okay with that. i want to see what this man can do to lead us. im excited. |
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| It's been quite a while... |
[Jan. 16th, 2009|04:49 pm] |
So, I find myself having a lot to say, but never knowing how to organize my thoughts into words. Either that, or I just don't have the patience to.
I've started yet, another semester at COD, even when I wasn't supposed to. I have 81 credits obtained, not counting this new semester. The requirement for your associates degree? 64 credit hours. Ugh.
I got offered this job. So I took it. I'm a little confused, but hopefully my coach gets everything organized so I can do what I need to.
Something happened to me today that was a bit of a surprise. Nothing big, but pivotal, perhaps. I saw a teacher of mine walking down the hall... I had her the first or second semester I was at this school. While passin her in the hallway she smiled and said," hi julie! So good to see you!" as insignificant as it may seem, I only spent 16 weeks in her class, only on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Either she just has a really good memory, or something about me stuck out enough for her to remember me 3 years later. ... I'd like to think it was the latter. And that makes me feel really good ....
To be continued.... |
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| good. |
[Sep. 17th, 2008|11:26 pm] |
i scored a sick ass goal today.
we won 4-0
so much to talk about besides this. buttttt i dont feel like it.
goodnight! |
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| finally. |
[Aug. 18th, 2008|12:08 pm] |
MY INTERVIEW AT NORDSTROM ESPRESSO BAR WENT REALLY WELL!
im stoked. the people i met that work there already seem really really cool. and i think this is going to be a really great thing for me. :) i hope i get the job. im freaking stoked! |
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| this will always make me laugh. |
[Aug. 11th, 2008|10:46 am] |
although this woman says his last name the "american" way (and shes british) here's thierry henry, pulling a funny trick.
hilarious.
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